Friday, January 4, 2013

Hello, 2013

Goodbye, 2012.  You were an interesting year...

You had your highs and your lows, like any year, I suppose. You brought more clarity to my life, while also adding a decent amount of confusion (which I'm still working through, thankyouverymuch). But I survived you. And now it's time to meet 2013...

I wonder what this year will bring. It hasn't exactly started off well. I've been trying to kick this nasty chest cold thing, but it just doesn't seem to want to let go. My mother is still living with us, and it hasn't been particularly easy. Something tells me it won't get any easier over the next couple months, either. I haven't had the energy to think about my goals for this year. And while I love my children, having them home has made it harder to get back into my routine. My office is a disaster, as is my living room, bedroom, bathroom and...well, the whole house. I'm feeling quite unsettled about my Project Life, as I don't have enough page protectors and I'm waiting for my January kit to ship from Studio Calico (it won't be here until at least next Friday). And I'm nowhere near being ready to change our eating habits.

Yet here I sit, blogging. Something I haven't done since September. Something that isn't exactly pressing or time sensitive. Why, I wonder...

Reading this over, I realize how negative this may all sound. I am, after all, a self-proclaimed pessimist. It's not coming from a negative place, though. It's just the state of my life. Right here, right now.

One thing I have thought about is my One Little Word for 2013. It actually came to me in December as I was going through the motions of the Holidays (I just didn't feel it this year. Not sure why). I decided that 2013 would be the year of being PROUD. Proud of my appearance, of the way I treat my children, of the way my house looks/feels, of MYSELF as a PERSON. I want my actions to be guided by that word. I want to feel like I'm doing good things, things to be proud of. If I can ask myself, "Will that make me feel proud of myself?" before I take action (or decide not to take action), and answer YES, then I'll know I'm doing well.

I also want to be more honest and real. I read the most amazing post yesterday over at Tracey Clark's blog about that very thing. I found myself nodding as I read her post, feeling that she took the words right out of my mouth. I want to join her in blogging about the good and the bad. My success and my failure. After all, we can't know light without knowing what darkness is, right?

Those are just a few thoughts I'm having right now...hope to share more over this year.


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